Quote: Self- deception by The Arbinger Institute

http://www.amazon.com/Leadership-Self-Deception-Getting-out-Box/dp/1576759776/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1333384718&sr=8-1

"Self- deception is like this. It blinds us to the true causes of probmles, and once we're blind, all the "solutions" we can think of will actually make matters worse. Whether at work or at home, sells-deception obscures the truth about ourselves, corrupts our view of others and our circumstances, and inhibits our ability to make wise and helpful decisions."- The Arbinger Institute

Counting my Blessings...

My dear friend Jenn has inspired me once again to write.

Her Blog today was about counting blessings... which you can read here.

http://www.jenniferwelbornwrites.com/2012/02/count-your-blessings.html

I love how she reminds me of my roots and that I am truly a southern girl although, I may no longer live in the south.

Anyways, before I get side tracked.

My Blessings, From 10-1.

10. I am blessed that I have a job that allows me the flexibility I need.

9. I am blessed that I am healthy and that I know what it means to be truly happy.

8. I am blessed that I have a wonderful caring family and great friends.

7. I am blessed that I am able to learn and grow from past mistakes.

6. I am blessed to have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, with food in my cabinets, and money when I need it.

5. I am blessed that I am able to show my husband the support he needs so that he can do what he loves.

4. I am blessed that People (strangers) care about my family, and are willing to take the time to get to know them and myself.

3. I am blessed to be able to drive a car, read, and write.

2. I am blessed that I have for sight to the future, even though I don't always understand why.

1. I am blessed to have AMAZING children and a Loving husband.

I know that I am blessed in many more ways then just these, But its time for me to get back to life.

I hope that this little blog inspires you to think about your blessings and those around you.

Feel free to comment and share with others.

Many blessings and happy thoughts.

A moment...

Under the shade tree
where I sit
children swarm
like hunny bees
chasing wild flowers
of sprinkle sunshine
cool breeze sends
shivers through out body
quickly after
warmth of gold sun
peaking in the tree limbs.
! Quick sudden Jolt!
Of energy swoops by
a wondering child
Brings back memories
a distant stare.
Often startled
slightest movements
Something Strange
yet...
Comforting.

First step to Change...not fight it.

As some of you know ... (cause you personally know me). I often wake up at random odd hours. Normally I sit on the sofa, stare at the TV or on FaceBook, wishing how I could just go back to sleep.
Then 6:30am rolls around and I am soooo tired, (because I was focusing on wanting to go back to sleep.) I go back to bed, only to find my eyes shut for a few moments then its 8:00am, I am grumpy and I still have the rest of the day to go through.

Well today I didn't fight my body! It said at 3:58am.
Time to get up!
At first I must say I did roll over and say No, just a few minuets longer.
However my body said YES, Get UP!
So I got out of bed, dimmed some lights through out the house, trying not to wake the other four people that are sleeping ever so peacefully.

And I thought to myself might as well go on a jog. Soooooo....

Today was the first day I got up at 4am to go on a Jog! (It was more like a walk jog for the most of it, with little bit of jogging sprints.)

At first my little jog was easy, but then the cool morning air hit my lungs. Made it kinda hard to breath at first. I had to slow down a bit. It was not a very long one either, But still. I did it!

Now as I am typing this I find myself wanting to go back to my nice warm bed. Its 5:45am. Maybe I should see what a little cat nap might do.

Today I took the first step in not fighting what my body tells me.
Lets see how this day goes.

Hope Everyone enjoys their day. :)

The Art of Letting Go.

Letting Go....

I have had many conversations with someone I used to call a friend about the idea of letting go.
How to let go. When to let go. What to let go.

Now I have conversations about REALLY Letting Go, learning that everything will come to pass.

Some of you may be asking Letting Go of what?

Letting go of the guilt, anger, worries, grief, fear, doubts, the should, shouldn't, all the suffering, the double suffering. ( I do alot of double suffering.)

When I would have these conversations, I would ask how to let go.

Now I finally understand what it feels like to let go.
 And I have to share it with you...my dear readers.

Its when you feel like you are at lost, you have tried all your options and you throw your hands up in the air and say to your self...maybe to the world "I am done! I give up!" You wipe your hands clean to confirm this, and as you do this the burden of whatever Suffering was on your shoulders finally lets go.

That is what it feels like to let go.

After you let go, and you finally think you are Really done, something wonderful happens, a small window opens and light shines in.... answers come pouring in. Then you realize the answers were already there. They were just covered up by the worries, the fear, anger, grief, guilt..... basically all the suffering we put on ourselves.

Then we start again, by saying "I should have seen that!" (double suffering)

Letting go is really just that same feeling, with the understanding the answers will show themselves when we are ready to see they are there.

I am not saying this is easy.
Nor am I saying that I don't get emotional, with the fear, the guilt, the worries, anger, and the shoulds.

What I am saying is Whatever IT is.... it will pass.
There will be good times and bad times.
Enjoy the good ones, work through the bad ones.
And when those creeping feelings of judgements (sufferings) start to bestow upon yourself,
Let go.

Possible (its short)

Each day we get caught up in what is not going right, and all the drama of daily life. If we let it, It can hold us captive. Then we repeat the same patterns over and over like beating us over the head. And yet we move on with in this circle, unable to open our minds and just see.... what IS possible. Well my friends, I have not mastered the art of All the possible things in life. However I have mastered the art of understanding that nothing is Impossible.

The Universe Listens.... and talks back.

I have finally started seeing how the universe listens. It does give you what is being asked for. 

Details are very important in this time. If you leave out details of what it is you want... You might just get a whole lot of what you don't want. 

Also the universe will test you to make sure you want what you are asking for... sometimes when a pebble is thrown in your way there are three choices. 1. kick it, 2. trip over it, or 3. step over it.  

A pebble was thrown in my way On Tuesday, I was supposed to start working. When I got there all proud of myself for being on time, and not rushing. I was told that I would have to start next week instead. I understood her reasoning. However when I walked out the door I took big sniffles... You know the ones that shake your whole inside when you are trying to not cry out loud. I was feeling pretty emotional about it. Kinda confused and worried if I still had the job I was offered just the week before.

Then I came to realize it was the universe listening to me again.... I was just not ready to start yet. I had some meetings to do and projects to finish.

Early Tuesday, the Morning of me going back to work, Miss K had a tummy and an ear ache, later she ended up in the hospital due to an object being trapped in her ear.  Since I didn't go to work, a friend that just happen to be in the area picked me up, (another thing the universe heard.... I needed a ride) I was able to bring snacks to my Hubbie and Miss K. As soon as they got done with the snacks, we got called back and I was able to be there for my little girl. She was so brave.

Though we almost ended up back in the hospital again when I burnt my finger on the pan taking it out of the oven... I was lucky and it was only second degree burns. (when I was not listening to what the universe was trying to tell me)

Today I was able to stay home with Miss K. just to make sure she was OK, the night before she went to bed with a small fever. Which the DR said could be from the pressure place on the ear drum her body was trying to fight the object that was pushing up against it. I was able to keep an eye on her and she didn't run a fever at all today, while getting spoiled with Happy Plant smoothies and sugar free cookies. She made sure to tell Mr C and Miss B about all the yummy treats she had today.

I was also able to sell a necklace and finish up a few projects I had going.

However, today again I was not listening to what the universe was saying and I again hurt myself by running the corner of my beading tray in between my rib cage knocking the breath out of me, sending me right down to my knees gasping for air. Still when I breath or move some ways, I feel it.

I believe I am supposed to be taking it easy and resting.....  this week. Since the universe is not speaking with words I have to take its hints... though tomorrow seems like its planning out to be a busy day... I am going to try and make it a easy resting day.

Life is good.