Stuck in a rut...

Have you ever felt Stuck in a Rut?

This is how I have felt for past few days.

Sorry I have not kept up with the writing, I have sat down and started to write about a few different things that have happened over the past week. But then when I search for the words to be typed out.... I can not seem to find them.

I can say that I had a great weekend, and Friday was really good too.

Friday I had two interviews, One with a company I would be so proud to work for, they treat their employees really good and it would be a great fresh start for me. The second interview was a bit odd, I felt like I was not supposed to be there. I almost didn't go. Glad I did though, now I don't have that What If, in the back of my mind.

We had a great time on Saturday and Sunday Day was pretty great as well. But when it came to Sunday night after we came home from someones house I just felt real mad. Mad at the world mad.
I could name a few things that got me to that point but I will not bring those up. Instead I am going to talk about how I feel.

I feel as if my life is going on in the circle that is always repeating itself and I do not know how to stop it. I feel as I am stuck in this circle, going around and round, while I am watching everyone that I know move on with their life.

Now do not get me wrong, I Love my Kids, my Husband... and I even love being in Canada.
 However I want to be more then just a mom or a wife. For some people that is all they need to be content with their life... I do not like the feeling of being dependent on my Husband....or anyone for that matter.
Maybe its a control thing...

I often find myself feeling guilty for not being content... which I know is a super unhealthy way of looking at life.

Now I am trying to work on pulling myself out of this Stuck in a Rut...mad at the world state.... yet I keep hitting road blocks, and my energy is running low. My dreams tell me so...  (More on dreams later..)

So I hope I get the job I Interviewed with at the company I think is great. I will work on getting my energy level up and keeping it up. I might reread the book, "Who Moved My Cheese".  Maybe even go out and get some vitamin D drops... you never know how much you need the sun until its gone. And while my dear husband is out of town, I might just go and get my hair cut pixie short.... who knows.

Until Next Time Happy Thoughts.