Road Blocks...

I have not written in awhile due to hitting Massive Road Blocks.

They are not just normal road blocks with detour signs hanging over head, its the kind of road block that looks like you are at a four way stop all lights are off and roads are closed with all the "important" people in your life telling you what to do and what not to do.

See Normally I am the type of person that comes to the road blocks and I say Get the Hell out of my way I am doing it anyways. One thing is for sure I HATE BEING TOLD what I Can and CAN'T do.

When I was 18 years old I was told I would not be able to graduate high school if I didn't learn how to do geometry the RIGHT way.(I came up with the Right Answer ..just not the same way that was taught, so there for it was not the Right way) The very day all my friends were getting ready to walk across the stage, I had to wait by the phone and see if I could walk..just because I didn't think like everyone else.... I passed with a 75 and the fourth time taken the damn test.
When I was 18 years old, I moved out of my house because my Momma and Daddy told me I could not have a cat. It took me a month to find a place I could call my own, and I house sat for my daddy's best friend just so I could have a roof over my head. ( I also do not like asking for help, or taking help when offered... I am learning how to ask for help)
When I was prego with the twins I was never told to stay in bed by my DR... and when I told them I didn't want to be cut open, I wanted to have my twins as natural as possible they all looked at me with disbelief.. my girls are 40 mins apart... yes I paid the price afterwards, my body went into shock and I lost alot of blood, almost shaking right off the table. Clearly I pulled through.
When I wanted to buy a house, I had to prove to everyone that it was possible for my husband and I to own a home, making very little money and with 3 kids...  We still own that house today.

There have been many other times where people say I can't do something for this reason or that reason... and I just look at them with fire in my eyes and say watch me.

Now Every day I am being told what I can and can Not do, by people that should not have any effect over my personal life. I have no space, I have no privacy, I do not feel comfortable in what is supposed to feel like a home.

I asked for help, I was told make something happen. When I made something happen I was told it was to fast, it was not right, I was told I could not do it.... my heart was broken...
I am being told I CAN'T just say Get the HELL out of MY way... because it just doesn't affect me, it effects my children, and my husband.

So with this being said... I have alot to think about.